“Don’t be a hard rock when you really are a gem.” -Lauryn Hill, Doo Wop Song
I like to read my Bible in the morning. It’s been a routine for about eight years now. This morning I woke up groggy and grumpy. I made my way downstairs and grabbed my Bible and a blanket and sat on the couch. I looked up the readings for the day on this site: http://oneyearbibleonline.com/
I settled in to read and then came across the verses in Proverbs for the day. They were Proverbs 21:17-18 but then my eyes went to the very next verse in 19 which says, “Better to dwell in the wilderness, than with a contentious and angry woman.”
My immediate thought was, “What did I do now? The day hasn’t even started, and I’m being Bible bashed just for being grumpy”, I thought.
This verse is usually a warning – a big one for me because I can be contentious at times. I can be angry at times. My husband is not perfect and neither am I. We both have our “things.” We definitely know how to press each other’s buttons, but today nothing had happened. Mario hadn’t even gotten out of bed and already there was an edge to my attitude.
We got out the door and things weren’t bad. There was just an edge to my attitude which stood in stark contrast to Mario’s sleepy yet sweet demeanor. I got cranky with the way he was driving in the morning. I got bothered that he wanted to talk about bills on the way to work when I had other things on my mind.
It’s human to have these moments of getting annoyed with each other, but it’s how we choose to behave in the midst of being annoyed that matters. And I am embarrassed to say I didn’t heed what I had read in Proverbs 21:19 just moments before.
As I was sitting at my desk at work the lyrics to a Lauryn Hill song I had heard the night before popped in my head, “Don’t be a hard rock when you really are a gem.” Within a few minutes I was on the phone with Mario apologizing and when I told him about the song quote, my voice broke and tears sprang to my eyes.
I’m glad I don’t get a pass on things considered “minor” because they will lead to “major” things if I’m not willing to face them and let God deal with me.
So the challenge is…listen for God’s voice through His Word and let Him call you out when you need it. His truth will always set us free.
“Through the LORD’s mercies we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. ‘The LORD is my portion,” says my soul, ‘Therefore I hope in Him!” Lamentations 3:22-24
Tomorrow is a new day with new mercies so let’s cling to that.
With all my heart,