It’s been a while, dear friend. the world has been a crazy mess and with it my heart has had its own battles. My heart beats loudly as i type and fears threaten my fingers to stop. to even sit at my computer right now is a moment of courage and perseverance. i need to focus on that – the good that God is showing me through stepping through the fears with Him. What are your fears today? what will we do with them?
i write today as a woman both in battle and in peace. its weird. i could go down the list of the recent events: conflicts, moments of clarity, great change, calm, friction etc, and they would be relevant and mildly entertaining.
but I want to write about my reactions and natural reflexes to life’s circumstances. i’m a fighter, sometimes out of fear and sometimes out of faith. i recently reacted badly to a surprise situation and found myself holding up an old shield and wielding an old weapon. it felt like the Sonia from years ago – fearful, controlling and hard, with a strong desire to just run away.
this feeling has been following me since that day. so this morning as i was gathering up the courage to write something, anything, to step through my fear, i thought of Jesus’ reactions in the Bible. only it seems that He didn’t react..or at least react like the way i understand reactions. it’s more like He responded to needs and pressed through the obvious to the depth of the issue. how does one do that?
as i was thinking about this i recalled what i’d learned and heard taught about Jesus living in the pure confidence in the will of His Father. He has the best defense because He has the best offense. Living forward in love. Living in God’s love is living free even when you’re in the battle of your life.
like i said, i’m in a battle against some deep things and maybe you are too so here’s some truth for us today to live free:
Ephesians 6:13-18 The Message
13-18 Be prepared. You’re up against far more than you can handle on your own. Take all the help you can get, every weapon God has issued, so that when it’s all over but the shouting you’ll still be on your feet. Truth, righteousness, peace, faith, and salvation are more than words. Learn how to apply them. You’ll need them throughout your life. God’s Word is an indispensable weapon. In the same way, prayer is essential in this ongoing warfare. Pray hard and long. Pray for your brothers and sisters. Keep your eyes open. Keep each other’s spirits up so that no one falls behind or drops out.
With all my heart,