“Be The Reason Another Woman Feels Sunshine, Not Shade”

Good morning! How are you this morning? I’m doing a “sister check-in” right now 🙂 I am tired, another four hour of sleep night. It happens from time to time. I’m on the downside of mid-forties and all the “changes” that comes with, sleep issues being one of them. But I am here and so are you, so I am grateful. The title of this blog is from a post I found on one of the social media sites. I just loved it – so much truth in that statement. We, women, can be shady to each other! God, give us grace!

Mario and I were in the backyard after work yesterday, and I looked up at the trees we planted a year ago along the fence line . I noticed how much the landscape on the embankment behind it has become more vibrant and thick, and I asked if it was because of the trees we planted. There’s a concrete divide between our fence and the embankment behind so they don’t share the drip irrigation we put in for the trees, but I told Mario that I thought they must share something in order to improve so much this past year. Mario mentioned a Radio Lab podcast that he’d heard a while back about that very thing. He sent me the link, and I listened to part of it and was excited to learn there was something to my theory. Here’s that podcast if you want to give it a listen https://www.wnycstudios.org/podcasts/radiolab/articles/from-tree-to-shining-tree

It got me thinking about this sunshine/shade thing between us women. Maybe it’s because we feel so much, our passion and emotions out in front – whatever it is I hope we learn a thing or two from these trees. Here’s a quote from ecologist Suzanne Simard, “It’s this network, sort of like a below-ground pipeline, that connects one tree root system to another tree root system, so that nutrients and carbon and water can exchange between the trees. In a natural forest of British Columbia, paper birch and Douglas fir grow together in early successional forest communities. They compete with each other, but our work shows that they also cooperate with each other by sending nutrients and carbon back and forth through their mycorrhizal networks.

I don’t think there is anything wrong with competition. I think it’s necessary to push us further in our potential, but it can get tricky with insecurities, fears, jealousy and the like so we’ve got to keep ourselves in check to not throw shade. If you’re in my age group or above here is the definition of throwing shade according to dictionary.com: it’s “a subtle way of disrespecting someone verbally or nonverbally.” That’s why I was so intrigued to read about these trees and their cooperation and competition. I think that is a perfect balance of challenging and encouraging each other. Something to think about this Wednesday morning. I have to leave this post here just like this because I have to get ready for work now, but I have two videos that I hope you take the time to watch. The first one is a Tiny Desk concert I’m listening to as I type. It’s really good! The second is a scene from the movie Seabiscuit and what competition should look like (notice riders 7 and 9 at about the minute and a half mark of the video clip). That is my hope and prayer for all of us ladies, that we would help and root for one another – win, lose or draw.

Thanks for reading today! With all my heart, Sonia

The Story of “I Stayed Up Way Too Late Again”

Good morning! I have about ten minutes because I could not will myself out of bed when I should have. I kept resetting my timer for ten minutes, then ten minutes more, then five minutes and five minutes more. You get it, right? I will get to the point. Last night Mario and I were FaceTiming with our friends and one of them said something to the effect of “Why do we push away what we need?” We were talking about different situations in life where we want what we want but it just isn’t that way. Our “ideals” in our occupation, family relationships, home, church, health are not what we would want them to be, and that’s the point this morning. We push back so often against the change God wants to bring into our lives for no other reason then we want what we want, when we want it, and how we want it. As I am typing this out I realize how childish and immature this sounds. It’s true though. It is childish and immature (aka selfish) to push against those things that God wants for us because He knows best!

I have to wrap it up here with this: Last night I knew I should have gone to sleep earlier, much earlier. I was tired. But NO, I had to stay downstairs watching TV way too late (I can’t even remember what I was watching), then on my phone in bed (a no-no, I know!) and next thing I know Mario’s watch was making the “it’s midnight” chirp. I didn’t even fall asleep at that time! I was now consternated because it was past midnight, and I wasn’t yet asleep. I may have gotten four hours of sleep tops last night. My fault, totally my fault. I know that is a small example of this theme, but what’s your thing(s)? What change has God brought to your life that you’re just pushing against or flat out ignoring? Whatever it is, my hope and prayer is that we surrender. We lay down our ideals and are open to His plan, His way, His will for us because it is good because He is good! That’s all I’ve got today. As I was writing this, this verse popped in my head:

11 When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child. But when I grew up, I put away childish things. 1 Corinthians 13:11 (NLT)

That verse wraps this up. It is time to grow up. God has more for us!

P.S. Please enjoy this song called, “Count Me In” because we are all in this together!

Hey, You! You’re Flawless

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Good morning! I have about 15 minutes to put these thoughts in this here blog. I wish I had more time, but I wanted to remind us all of something. Yesterday I was talking with a friend after work and made this comment, “I know I’m not perfect.” She stopped what she was doing and looked right at the computer screen (this was on Zoom) and asked, “You do know how God sees you, right?” That question caught me off guard. I know God loves me, but I also know who I can be in my worst moments. I must have just made a face without answering because she continued, “He sees you as perfect because of Jesus living inside of you.” There. There it was – this truth that I set aside, and maybe all of us set this truth aside as we go about our day. She continued to speak of how God already knows everything, absolutely everything about us and sees us as flawless. So I wanted to write about that today. Walk in that truth today. Yes, we still have our skin and all the blemishes that we know about but bigger than that is His perspective and truth about us. Let’s live that out! Live that loud!

Here’s some truth from God’s Word:

“You are altogether beautiful, my darling;
    there is no flaw in you.” Song of Songs 4:7

Here are some lyrics from Flawless by Mercy Me: (I encourage you to look this song up on YouTube and let the words flow over you and SING ALONG)

There’s got to be more
Than going back and forth
From doing right to doing wrong
‘Cause we were taught that’s who we are
Come on get in line right behind me
You along with everybody
Thinking there’s worth in what you do. Then like a hero who takes the stage when
We’re on the edge of our seats saying it’s too late
Well let me introduce you to amazing graceNo matter the bumps
No matter the bruises
No matter the scars
Still the truth is
The cross has made
The cross has made you flawless

No matter the hurt
Or how deep the wound is
No matter the pain
Still the truth is
The cross has made
The cross has made you flawless
. Could it possibly be
That we simply can’t believe
That this unconditional
Kind of love would be enough
To take a filthy wretch like this
And wrap him up in righteousness
But that’s exactly what He did

Well, it is 6:56am! I made it! I will wrap this up letting you know that I have gotten knocked down more times than I can count so far this year, and it’s just April LOL! Guess what, I keep getting back up. By God’s grace I keep pressing on. I just want you to know that, that this is hard, and we will make mistakes, but we are who God says we are! We are flawless.

Last thing before I hit the Publish button on this thing….as I write I put on music in the background. This morning I chose Respond by Travis Greene on YouTube and this song here came on right after. SO GOOD!! Put this on blast and have a beautiful Wednesday, my flawless friend!

As always, I sign off with “All my heart” because it is with all my heart that I write these words to you this morning, Sonia

Playlist for a Bad Day

To my handful of readers, I hope this blesses you whether or not you’ve had a bad day (week/month…) recently or are right in the middle of one. I was at the tail end of my bad day recently when I finally sat down on the couch to watch tv and just try to forget all of it. I couldn’t shake the heaviness that just felt like it was sitting on me – holding me stuck. The replaying of the day and emotions were showing no signs of leaving my mind. I was just flipping through channels on the remote hoping to land on something like The Office or whatever to lighten things up, when I came across the channel that was going to show the movie, I Can Only Imagine next. If you haven’t seen it yet – find it, watch it! Watch it today, please! I was reminded once again about God’s redemptive power no matter what. I can relate to that movie in so many ways so the tears kept falling after I watched it last night, partly because of the movie, partly because of the day and mostly because God is so so good. Afterward Mario and I were talking about the band Mercy Me (since the movie is based on the life of the lead singer and how his song, “I Can Only Imagine” came to be). We looked up their song list on YouTube and were listening to a few of them when I came across this gem:

This testimony was so honest and made sense why this song rocks me to the core every time I hear it. It’s amazing what worship can do to a heavy heart. The tears turn into joy right then and there. It’s literally miraculous.

We listened to this song last night too, just sat and listened and let these words, the beautiful melodies, harmonies lift our hearts up:

We heard this one too, reminding us to press through and remember how His grace has got us:

And to end this playlist out, listen to this one as loud as you can and remember that He made us flawless:

I’m so thankful this morning that everything, everything, everything heartbreaking, soul crushing, aggravating, gut-punching will be used to mend, mold, shape, transform and bring value and ultimate good for my life and point to the glory to God. If you’re having a bad day (or not), I hope you know how much you are loved and seen right there in the heartbreak. God hasn’t turned away and won’t leave you there. I will end out this blog post with my life verse:

The Lord your God is with you,
    the Mighty Warrior who saves.
He will take great delight in you;
    in his love he will no longer rebuke you,
    but will rejoice over you with singing.” Zephaniah 3:17

Oh yes, He does rejoices over us with singing.

With all my love,

Sonia

Do You Suffer From “Spinning Plate Syndrome”?

It’s 5:30am on a dark Monday morning, and although I am trying to switch to tea, I confess I desperately need coffee this morning. For those of you who know me, you know that the better part of this past year I have struggled with insomnia, but thankfully the past few months it subsided quite a bit – until last night. I struggled getting to sleep while this topic of “spinning plates” literally spun around in my mind. I’ve been up since 3:30 this morning praying, reading, avoiding, flat out reasoning myself out of writing this blog post. I’m laughing now because my alarm just went off on my phone, startling me in the middle of typing. It is quite comical that I even had an alarm set today. I am seriously NOT going to get rest until I write, and that is really ok. I think we all need those “motivations” – whatever God uses to put attention on something.

That’s what happened to me and my husband this past year during the Covid pandemic shut down – God got our attention. We didn’t even know it but we were seriously stuck in a spinning plate situation that had only one way out. Looking back on the last year we can see it now, but while we were in it we just kept going. I will seriously spare you all the hints from God that we were not supposed to keep at it like that. We worked tirelessly at all the tasks/demands/jobs/relationships with little regard to how this was affecting our ability to truly connect with God and each other. Let’s face it, it was easier that way, at least for a while. It’s easier to look outward, perform outwardly, get validated from outside sources than to work on intimacy and healthy living within the walls of your home. At least that’s how it was for us – until about two and a half months ago.

After the beginning of 2021 we had lots of talks, prayer and soul searching to make some big changes that ultimately led to stop spinning the plates, sitting down and seeing things for how they really are. And see, did we. We saw once again, like we did at the beginning of our journey with the Lord, His order for our lives. His order, meaning God first and then each other and then everything else. We were out of order, hence the spinning of the plates, and we were in situations and environments that made it all too easy to keep that pace going.

So, we stopped. We made the difficult and scary decision to say no to living out of control. We made the decision to be okay with being misunderstood. We made the choice to rest and trust in the Lord’s faithfulness. We made the choice to choose each other again.

Like any big life change, it will be stepping into the vast unknown. Changes in all areas of your life are pretty much guaranteed. When you let go of all of those plates you were never meant to be spinning, your hands are freed up to receive everything that God has. Don’t get me wrong, it is messy, not perfect and heart wrenching at times since your muscles were so used to working at warp speed to keep everything afloat for so long. Life, as you know it will never be the same, but that is the life giving process of letting go of that control and letting God have His perfect way in your life and mine.

And just know….this is a process. When you stop spinning the plates, things will crash down. Be certain of that. Try, as you may, to avoid the crashing plates, you can’t. You will cringe at the sound. You will agonize over the people staring at the pile of mess. You will cry over the “silence.” But then, God will be right there. You will find He hasn’t gone anywhere, and He will not leave you confused. He will give you wisdom, strength, joy and everything you need to flex the courageous muscles needed for finding joy in the uncertain.

I am encouraged by this Facebook post from Beth Moore on March 17 this year: ‘It’s not too late for a new start. It may be scary as heck. But it’s not too late. I find that, over and over in this pilgrimage home, Jesus finds one way or another to scribble a question in the dirt: Do you trust Me? Then follow Me.” But where are You going, Lord? “Come & see.”‘

I could write and write about shattered plates, mosaics and the like but I’ll stop here and ask for you to listen to this song on blast about our Waymaker but because I am half Mexican, half Puerto Rican, I had to post the salsa version for you all (found at the top of this post). Have a blessed week!

With all my heart,

Sonia

“Hard Sunday” Chicken Recipe

Disclaimer: This isn’t the photo of my chicken dish but it was a legit recipe

This past Sunday was a mixture of the good, the bad and the ugly. The day consisted of virtual church in the morning, brunch at home with our daughters, a nasty argument with my husband, a three-hour conversation with friends, a continuation of the nasty argument and finally a home cooked chicken dinner with peace as the main dish. I will spare you all the details of said ugly argument and just tell you that we are dealing with a big change in our lives. I am processing all the emotions of it one way, and he is processing his emotions another way. The difference of how we are dealing with the emotions led to the nasty argument. I read somewhere recently that when someone is sharing their feelings, simply asking the question, “Do you need comfort or solutions?” has solved most of all arguments. I looked up who coined this phrase to give proper credit but just found social media posts about it. A friend of mine said she’d read it or something like it in the book ‘Love & Respect: The Love She Most Desires; The Respect He Desperately Needs’ by Emerson Eggerichs, which is probably where this came from.

So getting back to Sunday’s events…at the tail end of the second part of the nasty argument, we realized we were both hungry. It was around 8pm, and we hadn’t eaten since midday. I had wanted to make chicken before meeting up with our friends, but we had spent all our time on the first part of the nasty argument that I didn’t get it done. I pulled out my phone and searched “Chicken Thigh Recipe” and just clicked on the first one that popped up. Here it is: https://thesaltymarshmallow.com/crispy-baked-chicken-thighs/#wprm-recipe-container-3611

Seriously sooooo good! I thought it was going to come out tasting as exhausted and angry as I felt, but it was amazing! Mario and I ate our dinner, still feeling the effects of the day, but thankful that we pushed through it all TOGETHER. We received the comfort we both needed right then and, I’m sure, it helped our blood sugar levels come back to normal and gave us a sense of comfort, warmth and the sustenance we needed to put the day to rest. What we both needed was comfort. The solutions will come when they’re supposed to, but it was comfort we were after, and we just blew it in communicating and focusing in on our pain. We forgot that we are in this process together. We are so different, but the need for comfort during this time is the same.

I wanted to write this blog for any and all of us having a few hard days to say, hang in there! God will provide everything we need even when we can’t articulate it or come up with what we need in that very moment. He will provide your very own “Hard Sunday Chicken Recipe” moment, tailored specifically for your heart and what it so needs…comfort from His hand.

Thank you for reading, and special thank you to thesaltymarshmallow.com for that recipe. I will be making this again and maybe next time the blog will be called “Supremely Peaceful Sunday – Chicken Recipe.”

One last thing before I end this: here’s the song Surrender by Natalie Taylor that someone sent me yesterday. I think it goes with this blog theme. Please listen and enjoy 🙂

With all my heart,

Sonia

It’s the Heart of the Matter

#valentinesday2021 I just searched this hashtag on Instagram and there are 446,000 posts already and we haven’t even gotten to the day yet! We are an obsessed people with all things love, love, love. I am glad for that. I, too, love love.

Do you remember that book that was turned into a movie, “He’s Just Not That Into You” by Greg Behrendt and Liz Tuccillo? Here’s the summary from Wikipedia, ‘The book is a “self-help” guide aimed for single women. The premise of the book, as stated in the title, tells women readers that if a man in whom you are interested in is not making the effort to pursue you, he is simply “just not that into you.”’

Then there’s the quote from Maya Angelou, “When someone shows you who they are, believe them the first time.”

Basically stating that people will show you how they feel about you. We tend to ignore red flags, signs, warnings and that gut-feeling all in the name of getting love from that person(s). We all make these mistakes so this is NOT an, “I’ve got this! Let me tell you all the answers” blog post. (Well, spoiler alert, there is an answer but please just read ‘til the end). And I believe you don’t even reach adulthood before having this type of scenario with at least one, if not a few, relationships.

Side note: I’m sorry for the downer Intro on Presidents’ Day/Valentine’s weekend! Hang in there…I’m going somewhere with this.

We all search for love, long for that special love, the unconditional, never going to leave you, no matter what, thick or thin, “I’m amazed by you“ love. Totally normal! What isn’t normal is what we sacrifice & compromise to get it from those who never intended to love us in the first place. (Cue the Johnny Lee song “Looking for Love in all The Wrong Places”).

So, I’ve been married to the love of my life, by God’s grace, almost 16 years now, and I put that Johnny Lee song to rest quite some time ago – but even now, all that love Mario has to give doesn’t cut it because we are just plain human and fail each other and, at times, flat out break each other’s hearts.

But still , we all need that perfect love and we tend to spend our lives trying to attain it in all sorts of ways, when it exists and is free and readily available if you want to accept it: JESUS, God’s only Son. ❤️

I’m serious! I spent 35 years of my life without accepting His love in my heart because I thought I was too damaged, not good enough and certainly not holy enough. But I’ve been in that relationship with Him for 11 years now, and He has NEVER EVER let me down.

Don’t sell yourself short & believe the hype that love like that doesn’t exist or that it’s for other people, the “put together, well-behaved” people! And don’t miss out because you think you are “a good person” and don’t need “religion.” We all have that longing for the perfect love and the answer is the one and only, the Savior of the World, Jesus.

My Valentine’s prayer for all of us is that no matter where we are, we look up & let that love fill us to overflowing knowing that God sees every part of us and chose us as His own. Most amazing of all, He died for us. He literally laid down His life us to give us something we could never get on our own…everlasting life, everlasting love. Grab your Bible or type in Google, John 3:16 and read it, and then put your hand on your heart. That’s the heart He died for.

Thanks for reading!

With all my ❤️,

Sonia

P.S. Happy Birthday, Madds 🎈

My Morning Walk Playlist

It’s 7:15am on Wednesday, April 29, 2020, and we are in the midst of a global pandemic with mask orders, (partial) beach closures and for some of us, in a remote working world. Amidst all of this there is pressure, stress, all kinds of relationship issues, financial problems, addictions, obsessions and loads and loads of self-medicating mechanisms. So this morning I woke up not looking forward to what the news will say or what awaited me in my email box for work. I have too much laundry to do and I’ve been working from home so I have no excuse. Dishes are in the sink and it’s just me and my husband here. I have relationship issues with some family members and friends and all of this was beating down on me this morning with the overarching theme that my life is a mess. I got out of bed and had to clear my head so I got dressed to go on a run in my neighborhood. God had other plans, and I’m so glad. Let me walk you through my morning walk (not run) with God, if you will 🙂

First it started off with my Apple Music not working on my phone. It wouldn’t load any song so I put on my Beats on and just looked for songs on YouTube the whole walk. Here are those songs. Please Enjoy!

Since I felt so defeated and down it is no wonder that the first song that popped in my head was something completely opposite: Kirk Franklin’s, Love Theory.

Next up as I started on an incline I thought of this song and typed it in, here it is…NF’s, I’ll Keep On.  (I love, love, love the words on this. It’s like someone looked in my heart and mind and put this song together!)

Then I went onto this song called Symphony by Switch. My favorite line of this one says, “Even in the madness, there is peace, drowning out the voices all around me. Through all of this chaos, You are writing a symphony.” YES! Amen!!

Next song that popped in my head was Riley Clemmon’s, Fighting For Me. Oh man, does He fight for us. Give this a listen and let those words sink in. He fights for us when we can’t fight for ourselves!!!

And then probably because I still had quite a way to go when I started to head back I pulled up for King and Country’s, It’s Not Over Yet. Like the song says, “Hope is rising! Never give in and never give up. It’s not over.” (I may or may not have been shadowboxing as I was heading home and listening to this one:)

As I rounded the corner onto my street I pulled up this song, Hills and Valleys by Tauren Wells, and let me tell you, my hands were up in the air, full on praising God and full of fresh perspective. “In the valley I will lift my eyes to the One who sees me there.”

Last song for my morning walk was also by Tauren Wells called Known. I walked up to the front door and turned the handle and walked in a different person than when I had left just a half hour earlier, all because I went on this little walk with God and literally let Him sing over me.

I can’t know what you’re going through this morning, maybe you woke up feeling great, maybe, like me, you didn’t. Either way, I know I was supposed to share this with you. I literally asked God, “if you don’t want me to write anything this morning I won’t.”  I’m totally content just having this moment with Him and relishing that, but here I am sharing my morning playlist with you and the literal journey God took me on – all because my apple Music wouldn’t work. I think that’s one of the big takeaway’s for me right now. When things aren’t working, GOOD, because God has something better.

Have a beautiful Wednesday and know that if thing’s aren’t working out the way you think they should, hang in there, with God all things are possible! Matthew 19:26

With all my heart,

Sonia

13 Pounds Lighter (Give or Take)

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My HIIT Machine from Costco 🙂

I had to go to a doctor’s appointment yesterday and had to step onto the scale. Disclaimer: I am not all caught up in fitness, but I would put myself into the category of people I have heard described as “Fit-ish.” At times I am more motivated than others, but I have purposed to do cardio at least four times a week along with some other at home exercises sprinkled in here and there – nothing too drastic, but I did commit to this. Some weeks are better than others. More often than not I have kept my commitment and got up on that machine. Now add that to some GI problems in the last year that “inspired” me to make some much-needed diet changes and, “voila!” I have kept some weight off. After I was weighed by the medical assistant I asked her what my weight was. She said that I was ten pounds lighter than last year at this time and thirteen pounds lighter than May 2018! Now I know weight is just a number and muscle weighs more than fat etc., and I believe that, but my clothes fit better, my left knee has stopped hurting me and some of my joints that ached a little before hardly ache at all now, so I know it’s a good thing. This is not a”quick fix -lose weight fast thing” because it’s just been little tweaks to my routine over time. I now have proof that little decisions towards my health when no one is looking & when I am tired and would rather not, are making a world of difference. Taking care of my body is not selfish act – as a matter of fact – I’m called to this, and not just in the way of my physical health, but in every aspect of life. I need to show up for myself & so do you! Whatever little tweaks God has been tugging on your heart to do, do it! Push through the obstacles of old patterns, old ways of thinking and just downright laziness. Invest in yourself! I say this to myself right now as I get ready for the upcoming year and all that God has. I know there will be all kinds of changes and unknowns, but I want to be going in the right direction.

This past year I pushed aside my Bible more often than I care to admit and chose doing things my way in many areas. I still pressed forward – picking up where I left off. God doesn’t leave us behind when we have a cheat day (or cheat week/month/year). He just lets us get up, dust ourselves off and keep walking. That’s what He showed me with this weight thing – He is pressing in perseverance not perfection. Although I want the perfection so badly, perseverance is where the victory is. I want to be more committed to “being” rather than “doing” because I know it’s in the “being” that the doing will be done the right way.  Here’s the “being” list: BEING God’s daughter. That’s it. That’s all I am called to do – the rest is up to Him. He just wants me to get out of the way, be ready for Him to lead me and then trust. Will I fail sometimes – yes! Will I get it right sometimes – yes! Will I mature through all this – yes! Will I grow more into the woman God created – yes, and not because it’s up to Sonia, but because it is up to My Lord and My God. He won me over ten years ago, and I look back on that ten year landscape and know I have lost more than these 13 pounds. I’m much lighter in the truest sense of the word. And just so you don’t get it twisted, I am not boasting in my abilities – I am boasting in God’s faithfulness.

The Race of Faith

Hebrews 12:1 Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

Thanks for reading & thanks for running your race!

With all my heart,

Sonia

45 & Showing Up

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This from one of my favorite Bible teachers, Priscilla Shirer! Perfect insta post for this day!

To say I am blown away to wake up and celebrate this 45th trip around the sun is an understatement. I could fill a book and then some with scenarios that were not the safest nor sanest of things to do in my teens, twenties, thirties. With all of those memories comes this realization, “God kept me alive for a reason, and I don’t want to take that lightly.” I write in a prayer journal every day and this is what I wrote today at 8:45am: 

Dear Father God, Thank you for this beautiful day full of birth and identity in You! I pray I please You even more this year, respect and love my husband more this year and let go of the need of validation from others. Thank you for sustaining, growing me, teaching me and molding me. Steady as I go, Lord. No holding back now. I am brave, bold, beautiful and best of all, Yours. Make me even more effective for Your kingdom. In Jesus’ Name I pray. Amen!

There’s that part in my prayer – that secret part, the “Let go of the need of validation from others,” part – that makes me slightly terrified because I know it means that I have asked God to put me in the process of changing this, and He is faithful to do it. So why did I ask Him for this birthday gift? Because the people-pleasing part is killing me…as I know it is a killer for anyone. I just got off the phone with a friend of mine, and we were talking about the people-pleasing starts young partly because of not fitting in, like anywhere or with any particular group. She said, “It’s everybody’s story.” I agree. It’s not just my story. We don’t quite fit, and that is a good thing. So this year that is what I am going to do with God’s help: stop making it everyone’s job around me to make me feel accepted, valued and whole. That’s what God has already given me so I can open that up every day and launch out from there and SHOW UP!

To those who have been patient with me through all of these years, “Thank you and forgive me.” To those who will be put off by me putting up some new boundaries #sorrynotsorry, and to those that are in this same boat, “Let’s cheer each other on and point to Jesus!”

That’s all for today, with my whole heart, thank you for reading my b-day post!

Sonia