Encouragement for Women · Run Your Race · Seasons

This (insert struggle here) is God’s Love Too

09da8585526a8d8d6938dab0d81eab0b.jpgTonight I have a confession to make here. I’m struggling with change all around me, and I do not like it. Relationships, jobs, schools, finances, family…things look very different than even a few months ago. Not all of it is bad, but it definitely feels like I’m on shaky ground, and I’m gingerly walking each step, holding my breath. I am questioning myself, doubting things I once found solidness in and have this sense that things are completely out of control. I wonder, “Am I just blowing it here?” or “Is everyone heading one direction, and I’m veering off the road?” That’s where I am right now. No concrete answers. No one saying, “Go this way or don’t go that way!” Just sitting here in my struggle against, CHANGE.

Last night Mario and I had a conversation about failure and one of the things we brought up was what real failure looked like. I said, “I think if you’re not growing and changing, you’re failing. If you unplug and disconnect from the hard stuff then you’re failing.” Little did I know how those words would play out real time in my mind the very next night as I sit here in this uncertainty.

This is all I know tonight…this is the only truth I can hang my hat on, “This, too, is God’s love.” Whatever all this is…the feelings, the wonderings, the angst, the worry…God’s love has not gone anywhere. That’s all I’ve got.  That He loves me, and He’s letting me have this time to process and grow out of fear and into faith. I’m a Christian so I do go through that process of trying to pinpoint what I’m doing that is sin so I can just confess it and be done with it. I have to just wait on God to see what He shows me. I have to cry out to Him and let Him know I am afraid and uncertain. I have to open up my heart to whatever truth He wants to reveal. Right now, it’s the “I have to” time because it’s part of growing up. I have to wait until He walks me through this to the other side. I can’t move. I can’t change friends. I can’t change jobs. I can’t change families. I can’t change churches. I can’t change anything, but I can wait for God to change me – because if you’re not growing and changing, you’re failing.

If you’re like me tonight, trust God and His timing. Don’t trust your feelings.

Also tonight in our Women’s Bible study we started “Steadfast Love – A Study of Psalm 107” by Lauren Chandler, and I have to tell you, as hard as it is to just “be” right now, these words we studied tonight really drove it home,

“He made the storm be still, and the waves of the sea were hushed. Then they were glad that the waters were quiet, and he brought them to their desired haven. Psalm 107:29-30”

God will get us to that desired haven – we can be sure of that. He loves us – we can be sure of that. He will deliver us – we can be sure of that. He is faithful – we can be sure of that.

With all my heart,

Sonia

Seasons

“I Like Big But’s, and I Cannot Lie”

Hi again, I know it’s been a while. So much happens in a day, week, month, year. Life changes in a heartbeat. Well, I am ending out our Fall women’s Bible study through Job by Lisa Harper. AMAZING, if you haven’t done it, please do. It’ll rock your world, in the very best way. I know, you’re thinking…JOB, really? But seriously, do it, if you can.

I was looking for something to read this morning and turned to Proverbs to start reading through it for the month of November so I started with Proverbs chapter one, and it’s heavy. I was reading through it thinking, woah, I am a little scared here and not sure if I want to do this for a month and then I came to the last verse in the chapter, verse 33, which says,

“But whoever listens to me will dwell safely. And they will be secure, without fear of evil.”

Which is when I thought, “I love the BUT’S in the Bible!” They are full of such promise! They say, “It’s not over yet,” even when you think it is.

Let me get personal for a minute. There are young people in our lives that have chosen very hard paths, definitely riddled with pain and struggle and death too. They are doing life on their terms and to look at them, it is SO not freedom. Even though that’s what they thought their choices would bring them. It’s hard to sit back and watch that destruction. It is dark and heavy. I get anxiety just thinking about where these paths lead. Especially with one of our young friends who is so steeped in addiction that I don’t know if they will make it through this week. All around we can see such heartbreaking situations all over the place, in our families, friends, workplaces, schools, country, world. It is dark, but then there’s the BUT.

BUT GOD. 

So whatever’s happening in your life and  mine, we can know that God has the final say on everything on earth and in the heavens. He has the final say for today and for eternity. We turn from our anxiety, from our pain and we TRUST. We BREATHE. We LIVE.

“But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” Romans 5:8

With all my heart,

Sonia

 

Encouragement for Women · Seasons

Happy “Longest Day of the Year”

Welcome to the first day of Summer 2018! Here we are – the day with the most daylight. I love summer for a lot of reasons but most of all because of how much daylight there is, and if you live near the coast, the possibility of going to the beach at any time. What are your plans this summer? Well for me, I would like to try stand up paddle boarding Whatever your plans are, let’s commit to doing something brave and stepping out of our comfort zones like the young girl in this video below. There’s no better time than the present. Have a great first day of summer & let’s ring in Summer 2018!

With all my heart,

Sonia